Testimonial time…. There have been times in my life (even in recent days) where I’ve thought “oh it wouldn’t matter if you were gone.” Or “there’s no purpose for your life.” I was so incredibly wrong.
God has a way of making us see the light however possible and let’s just say, He got my full attention. I was recently in a pretty serious car accident. I don’t know any of the details since I wasn’t conscious through the whole thing but it is terrifying to wake up and some stranger is prying your door open and telling you not to move because the accident was so bad. I wish I could say I knew what happened….but what I DO know is it would matter if I weren’t here and it very well could’ve been worse. Furthermore, I knew I hadn’t been diligent in making sure I was right with the Lord.
Let’s go back a while….I’ve mentioned before I’ve been struggling with salvation and purpose in life. See, I was saved when I was a teen. Or so I thought. But the closer I’ve grown in my walk with the Lord, the more unsure of that I became. Did I know for certain He’s my savior? Yep. Did I live my life like it? Sadly, nope. I’ve spent a majority of my adult life just making it day by day, working whatever job brought money in and basically still being the one on the throne. As much as I hate to say it aloud, I lived how I wanted to, listened and watched what I wanted to, acted how I wanted to, lived for myself and my own comfort, and my prayer life was basically relegated to when I wanted something from God. It grieves my heart to know that I walked so far away from the One who promised to never leave me.
I’ve said before losing Gabriel forced me back towards God, well, it did that but it also forced me to get down and dirty about my salvation. Did I know for certain I would lock eyes with Jesus one day? Did I know I was fulfilling my life purpose using my God given talents? I couldn’t answer those two questions definitively. But I can now.
We had a particular sermon about Peter walking on water and how he got out of the boat and did fine as long as his eyes locked on Jesus. As soon as he looked away, he began to drown. My life looks so much like that. I had grown accustomed to staying in the boat where it’s safe. Through some powerful time at the altar I realized I was called to do more. That was about 4 months ago. Since then, I’ve found my mission ground. My purpose. I’m a hospice nurse. I always swore I wouldn’t be and couldn’t do it, but it feels like home. And what better opportunity to minister to people than in their last moments. I’m so thankful to be given this opportunity.
That other question…I finally surrendered. I finally truly let go of the reigns and gave my life to Jesus. But I felt led to be obedient in baptism even though I’ve done it before. See last time, there was no inward or outward change in me. Christ was not in me. I know that now. So this past weekend I had the privilege of being baptized along with 43 brothers and sisters in Christ in the local lake. No, there’s nothing magic about that dirty lake water, but let me tell you, the feeling of knowing you’re washed clean spiritually and symbolically-that’s as real and magical as it gets. So happy to have my family and friends there and my precious husband assist Brother Terry in my baptism. I will never forget that feeling and pray it shows in my life. ♥️ I say all that to say-if you don’t know for certain where you’re going to spend eternity, do business with God NOW. You may not have tomorrow. I may not either but at least I know now for certain I will see my savior. Friend, this is one question you can’t afford to not know the answer to. And if you know-tell someone. Make sure they know. Let’s get as many people on this “grace train” as possible! Sharing a few photos from my baptism just because I have to show what it looked like as I took that first breath CLEAN. Friends, clean is an amazing feeling. The peace that comes with it is phenomenal. You want it. I promise.
Because I can’t do anything without song lyrics…here’s one currently on my mind.
🎶Couldn’t fight back the tears so I fell on my knees Saying, “God, if you’re there come and rescue me.”
Felt love pouring down from above
Got washed in the water, washed in the blood and now I’m changed And now I’m stronger
There must be something in the water
Oh, there must be something in the water
And now I’m singing along to amazing grace Can’t nobody wipe this smile off my face
Got joy in my heart, angels on my side Thank God almighty, I saw the light
Gonna look ahead, no turning back Live every day, give it all that I have. Trust in someone bigger than me
Ever since the day that I believed I am changed, And now I’m stronger🎶
-Carrie Underwood “something in the water”